BUILDING A MANSION BY LIZ SMITH

I do many things to prove that I’m worthy of others’ time and attention. I’m in certain clubs and take specific classes; I mirror how others act and dress; and I’m friends with certain people because I want others to like me. Some may think of this as closing specific “gaps:” gaps in knowledge, experience, social and professional skills, or work ethic. Others may consider it “building my house,” where everything I do is to improve my own future and create a solid foundation for my life.

However, I have decided I don’t want a house built on other people’s expectations, and I don’t want to close gaps because someone else says I should. I want a mansion, designed by my own choices, mistakes, and happy moments, and bridges across divides of my own choosing. I want a future that is as unique as I am, while continuing to listen to advice that will help me improve without stifling my personality. I choose to no longer live in submission to the prejudices of others, but to grow into the long-suppressed version of myself that has only been seen by few. My mansion and I will be incredible.