Creativity Gave Me my Life Back

I don’t see creativity in my life, it IS my life.

I have lived an undecided life; so afraid to make decisions that the best option in my mind was to make none at all.

I don’t say “my life” because it wasn’t.

Completely dictated by other people; who I was was trapped inside a cage of who I SHOULD be, who I thought I needed to be to be someone noteworthy. 

My VOJ was an earworm, IS an earworm telling me to be neat and tidy and quiet and a crisp neat rule follower.

But that earworm was drowned out by the music of who I am yelling at me from inside, and my VOJ wasn’t so easy to hear anymore.

I am a creative presence. I am someone people notice walk into a room because I make myself known. I am loud. I am bright. I talk A LOT. I do things other people look at and get secondhand embarrassment from while smiling and laughing. I fail all the time. AND I AM PROUD!

If I am ever famous, I want it to be for doing the crazy shit that no one else dared to do in fear of looking stupid. I want people to judge the hell out of me for it, and I want to embrace it. 

Creativity gave me my life back, and my first decision is to make any decision and learn from it instead of being too afraid to fall.

• Leane Kinney

3 Keywords: Freedom, Presence, Candidly

Info: Sophomore Entrepreneurship and undecided business major from Trenton, OH

Fun Fact: This picture is from 2 years ago and not only did I go Trick-or-Treating as Bob Ross in a wealthier neighborhood, I was the only person aged 15+ who was willing to trick-or-treat. Free candy is free candy.